LETS FLY.

2007-03-25T16:06:00.000+08:00

sayangs, my tears are for you. they're not wasted. i love you,bestfriends.

2007-03-23T20:43:00.000+08:00

coke coke coke coke coke coke coke coke coke coke coke coke coke coke coke coke coke coke.

FUCK IT,i dont want to be a bitch to you,you,you,you. but i guess i already am. OH BABY,it postive.

im tired, i have no room for you in my head now,im tired.. u know it girlfriend. and i love you too much.

i dont love you anymore.

2007-03-22T15:18:00.000+08:00

let me be,U DIDNT BREAK ME.
im screwed up? baby,im just getting started.
this is all i have after that disastrous day. i fucking thank you.

honey bunnn. :D

2007-02-16T12:32:00.000+08:00

the ugly kittie.

2007-02-13T17:02:00.000+08:00

honey bun.<3

BREAK DOWN&_ cry...

2007-02-13T16:32:00.000+08:00

some things are just worth waiting for.....

im an emo kid.

2007-02-13T15:19:00.000+08:00

as long as your happy, i wont give a fuck nymore. :)

perfect pictures.

2007-02-03T14:02:00.000+08:00

school started on the 1st of february and I get to sit with NAD wayyy back of the classroom. SIOK. hehe. and not being in the centre of teacher's attention guess what we did? HAHA. pictures ofkos. :P anyways yesterday i sat down with mama and counted expenses of tuition and whatnots. honestly.. i need to cut her some slack. :S i'll start my GEO tuition tonight. BUMMER. bapa came by last night,kos abang did some spraying on his car. ehhe. so yeah.

SECOND DAY.. :D syu can ALWAYS make me smile. :P
FIRST DAY. :) oh yeahh.. nyaman nadj? :p

P.S : more pictures on multiply,these are the perfect pictures of the day. HEHE. :D

LIKE THE NEW LAYOUT? :p

OGDC trip&day out.

2007-01-28T20:04:00.000+08:00

26th of january. and the 27th of January. __&iloveyou,heartbreaker.

why the big red shirt you may ask? well,its jul's shirt and he borrowed my jacket as you can see,that explains doesnt it? saturday night- smile, and wink wink. :P

hehe. i love them.
gangstaa look.
we're rich!
cool gurrrs
passport image 1
passport image 2

nadj,me and malai.
nadjmers
kami being cool. hehe
nad's take.
GRR BITCH GRR!
kiss kiss baby.
nadj inda cool
muka tekirit. HAHHA
his"penyeluru" face.
me and sayang
walking alone. heheh. :nad
the BOYFRIENDS.
QUACK!
the gang. hehe
i love you.
look above.
poser much?
puppets.
HAHA. cnadj
for syu.
gegar susu i 2. hehe
let the power combine
sayang iski. hehe
work it~!
tornado.
jobless when jul was asleep. hehe
nadj emo.
loike your position baby? HAHAH
focus on nadj
HAHHA. gegar susu i.
ISKI
HYUK HYUK
yes,the paris hilton
grrr. i have nothing better to do honey. hehe
jobless
the most perfect picture of all
PEACE YO
scratch scratch
nad B.
the boyfriends.

P.S :ITS NOT IN ORDER,GREY SHIRT IS SATURDAY AND REST IS FRIDAY,IN KB.

grr

2007-01-24T13:53:00.000+08:00

embah.
small lil pony tail
KUFF KUFF.
meet puuuppy.
GRRR.

i ate at coffee bean this morning for breakfast. then pictures of course. and now im browsing through phones. seriously i need one soon. :( iza wanted a Nokia7373 phone,so do i. so im making comparison on the modles 7360,7373,7370,7390,N73,6680 oh an this ones reaalllyy preetttyyyy Nokia 8800.ma and me ordered one from qqestore.com today. what it is u'll have to find out.

PEACE YO.

picturesss. :D

2007-01-22T16:25:00.000+08:00

snow white.
haziq,gangsta much?
hm hm
:)
cupcake.

soon.

<3.

a smile on your face.

2007-01-22T15:03:00.000+08:00

4 days of not fighting-lets just keep it that way. :) schools starting soon. and i havent fully prepare anything. and i guess i should start on my art TONIGHT.,finish off my maths and english. since i have an idea what to write of my composition. it sucks,i know. hmm. nothing really happened over the weekend,only of course the sayangs slept over. was suppose to go out with mongsiiku last night,but inda jadi,but sunday splash a promise? :)  and my mood swings not really that good these past few days,as to mantain my patience towards jul,and everybody else was hmm,everybody seems... annoying to me. every single one. some just like,fuck me out of their lives. and what makes everything ALOT worst is that my phone cant be fixed and using my brother's fone is okay,just that,i need a memory stick duo so i can put in songs. right right? like.. just when i just bought a 512MGmemorycard my phone when crashing. perfect dont u say? well,im getting a new phone for my upcoming first assesment test,HAHA seeeemannnggggaaaattt abis jua aku udah tu. HAHHA. well,i HAVE TO get good result.. or else. :(  anywayyys, i went out to eat with cupcake last night. we ate roti jon with cheese,let me tell u,it was exquisite. LAIN DARIPADA YANG LAIN as u say..? hehe.

loadsof people list down great things they've done,as for me, many things i regret doing.. but without me doing them i wont be able to learn from my mistakes right? so one of the most memora-ra-ra-ble-ble?-rial? okay,whatever. the most great thing that happen to me in 2006 is my birthday surprise. yep. thats it. and i have my best friends to thank for that. syu,nadj,nad,,elle,m,afiq,manda,jul. i love you.

thats it for now,i love spongebob faced-boxers.

i love you,but.

2007-01-19T01:28:00.000+08:00

Because the way we kiss is better then any drug

Because when I'm with you, I beleive in love
Cause you take chances most people would never take
You go out on a limb and your not afraid to break, and it gives me faith
I thought I'd never find someone as crazy as myself
No matter what I've done, you always come, when I cry for help

Thats Why I Love You
And Thats Why I Love You
There's nothing in this world, anything like you
Thats Why I Love You

Because when the times hurt, you always understand
Because you cure with the sweet touch of your hand
Cause you're not afraid to come off like a foul
Without trying baby, you've found the truth, and you make me laugh
I thought I'd never find someone who could see though my eyes
You always know when I tell the truth, and when I'm telling lies

Thats Why I Love You
And Thats Why I Love You
There's nothing in this world, anything like you
Thats Why I Love You

No one and nothin' baby
Could ever tear us apart
Let's stick together baby
Right through our hearts

Thats Why I Love You
And Thats Why I Love You
There's nothing in this world, anything like you
Thats Why I Love You

crazy B

2007-01-15T21:58:00.000+08:00

i am me,and i wont change for anyone.

i said..

2007-01-15T16:25:00.000+08:00

sometimes,a little bit more doesnt hurt.

then again.

2007-01-14T15:21:00.000+08:00

look how serious those two are not minding my shits? hehehe. i had a great time.

b,u are one big part of me,and i thank you.

unfaithful.

2007-01-12T13:55:00.000+08:00

why cant i get you off my head? make me hate you,nightmare..

2007-01-09T19:21:00.000+08:00

hes bringin sexy back~

hows life? hehh. :D

HOMEWORKS A BITCH,i tell you. :p

what would you think of me now? hehe. may angels bring you in. heheheh. apakan. *apakaumau*

FOR YOU NADJ,FUCKING ZOOM IT WILL YA! hahaha. nyummy! i swear its soooo fucking fucking big.

:was taken in my mum's bathroom when i was showering my anak buahs. when hakim look up he screamed "CICAK MAN!!!!" and ( i was bathing them in ma's bathtub) when i turned around,looked up, THERE IT WAS!!! it was big. i swear!

weird facts.

2007-01-08T01:18:00.000+08:00

hello firstly to people reading my blog,special dedication of assalamualaikum to haadi. hehe. ive been busy with art homework,maths homework,english homework,hmph,currently doing researches on my art i just discover was ermm not that hard guys if youre struggling go here this helps,banar! or you can go to ask.com,here just key in seven elements of art design. well,i hope i helped. and on top of that i have to menyusahkan myself by setting up two more websites which i cant even manage my multiply and my space talur aint it? :P hmm. anyways PICTURES WILL BE UP AS SOON AS I TAKE MORE PICTURES OF ME. I NEED TO GO OUT,BEST FRIENDS AND SAYANGS GET ME OUT OF HERE.

DID YOU KNOW??? :D searched by yours truly.

1♥it is impossible to lick your elbow.

2♥ A crocodile can't stick its tongue out.

3♥ A shrimp's heart is in its head.

4♥ It is physically impossible
for pigs to look up into the sky.

5♥ A pregnant goldfish is called a twit.

6♥ More than 50% of the people in the world
have never made or received a telephone call.

7♥ Horses can't vomit.

8♥ If you sneeze too hard, you can fracture a rib.
If you try to suppress a sneeze,
you can rupture a blood vessel
in your head or neck and die.
If you keep your eyes open by force,
they can pop out.

9♥ Rats multiply so quickly that in 18 months,
two rats could have over a million descendants.

10♥ In every episode of Seinfeld
there is a Superman somewhere.

11♥ 23% of all photocopier faults worldwide
are caused by people sitting on them
and photocopying their butts.

12♥ Most lipstick contains fish scales.

13♥ Like fingerprints,
everyone's tongue print is different.

14♥ Over 75% of people who read this
will try to lick their elbow.

And You Thought YOU Knew EVERYTHING.

15♥ Dentists have recommended that a toothbrush be kept at least 6 feet away from a toilet to avoid
airborne particles resulting from the flush.

16♥ The liquid inside young coconuts can be used as substitute for blood plasma.

17♥ Donkeys kill more people annually than plane crashes.

18♥ You burn more calories sleeping than you do watching television.

19♥ The first product to have a bar code was Wrigley's gum.

20♥ The king of hearts is the only king without a mustache.

21♥ Venus is the only planet that rotates clockwise.

22♥ Apples, not caffeine, are more efficient at waking you up in the morning.

23♥ The plastic things on the end of shoelaces are called aglets.

24♥ Most dust particles in your house are made from dead skin.

25♥ The first owner of the Marlboro Company died of lung cancer.

26♥ Michael Jordan makes more money from Nike annually than all of the Nike factory workers in Malaysia combined.

27♥ Walt Disney was afraid of mice.

28♥it is possible to lead a cow upstairs...but not downstairs.

29♥ The reason firehouses have circular stairways is from the days when the engines were pulled by horses. The horses were stabled on the ground floor and figured out how to walk up straight staircases.

30♥ Turtles can breathe through their butts.

31♥ Butterflies taste with their feet.

32♥ In 10 minutes, a hurricane releases more energy than all of the world's nuclear weapons combined.

33♥ On average, 100 people choke to death on ball-point pens every year.

34♥ On average people fear spiders more than death.

35♥ Ninety percent of New York City cabbies are recently arrived immigrants.

36♥ Elephants are the only animals that can't jump.

37♥ Only one person in two billion will live to be 116 or older.

38♥ A snail can sleep for three years.

39♥ No word in the English language rhymes with "MONTH."

40♥ The electric chair was invented by a dentist.

41♥ All polar bears are left handed.

42♥ An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain.

43♥ TYPEWRITER is the longest word that can be made using the letters only on one row of the keyboard.

44♥ "Go," is the shortest complete sentence in the English language.

45♥ If Barbie were life-size, her measurements would be 39-23-33. She would stand seven feet, two inches tall. Barbie's full name is Barbara Millicent Roberts.

46♥ A crocodile cannot stick its tongue out.

47♥ The cigarette lighter was invented before the match.

48♥ Americans on average eat 18 acres of pizza every day.

49♥ The longest one-syllable word in the English language is "screeched."

50♥ Almonds are members of the peach family.

51♥ The symbol on the "pound" key (#) is called an octothorpe.

52♥ The dot over the letter 'i' is called a tittle.

53♥ Ingrown toenails are hereditary.

54♥ The word "set" has more definitions than any other word in the English language.

55♥ The only other word with the same amount of letters is its plural: pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosesl.

53♥ The longest place-name still in use is Taumatawhakatangihangakoauauotamateaturipukakapikimaungahoronukupokaiwe-nuakit natahu, a New Zealand hill. HHAHAA

54♥ Los Angeles's full name is "El Pueblo de Nuestra Senora la Reinade los Angeles de Porciuncula" and can be abbreviated to 3.63% of its size,L.A.

55♥ Telly Savalas and Louis Armstrong died on their birthdays.
18. Donald Duck's middle name is Fauntleroy.

56♥ The muzzle of a lion is like a fingerprint - no two lions have the same pattern of whiskers.

57♥ The letters KGB stand for Komitet Gosudarstvennoy Bezopasnosti

58♥ 'Stewardesses' is the longest English word that is typed with only the left hand.

59♥ The only 15 letter word that can be spelled without repeating a letter is uncopyrightable.

60♥ Emus and kangaroos cannot walk backwards, and are on the Australian seal for that reason.

61♥ The word "Checkmate" in chess comes from the Persian phrase "Shah Mat," which means "the king is dead."

Okayokay,this is funny. Hehe

62♥ If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days you would have
produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee. (Hardly seems worth it.)

63♥ If you farted consistently for 6 years and 9 months, enough gas
s produced to create the energy of an atomic bomb.(Now that's more like it!)

64♥ The human heart creates enough pressure when it pumps out
to the body to squirt blood 30 feet.(O.M.G.!)

65♥ A pig's orgasm lasts 30 minutes. Eyw.

66♥ A cockroach will live nine days without its head before it
starves to death. Eeeyuck.

more updates soon. hehe. take your time readin these weird facts. :)

song survey.

2007-01-07T18:03:00.000+08:00

a survey i got from friendster.

To cheer myself up I:
* nothing in this world by paris hilton.

Will I ever have kids?
* you and i both by jason mraz.

What I did last night was:
* the middle by jimmy eat world.

Happiness is:
* scotty doesnt know by Lustra. HAHA

How will you die?
* wild world by skye sweetnam.

The best thing about me is:
*cintamu by dygta and ira.

My innermost desire is:
* halo by haley james scott.

My favorite thing to do is:
* sweetness by jimmy eat world. hehe

My family is described by the song:
*tears in heaven by eric clapton. aww,yeah right.

My deepest secret is:
* hear you me by jimmy eat world. :P

This song describes my grandparents:
* cruising by gwyneth paltrow and huey lewis. awww. hehe

Somewhere in my wedding vows, I will
include:
* better off by ashlee simpsons. OMYGOD.

My birth was like:
* Love for me by ashlee simpsons. heheh

The story of my life is:
* Upgrade you by beyonce and jay-z. haha

When I'm in the shower, I sing:
*Love makes the world goes round. :p

My best friend is like:
*number one by skye sweetnam.

What makes me happy is:
*fallen through by skye sweetnam. sad song to be happy about.

This song will be playing when I meet
the love of my life:
* I wanna Grow old with you. aww.

Next time I'm in front of a crowd, I'll
say:
* sugar we're going down.

My friends see me as:
* the buzz on maggie by skye sweetnam. haha

At my funeral they'll play:
*welcome to the black parade. depressing eh.

My love of life was inspired by the
song:
*burning up by ashlee simpsons. oh myyy~

I'll have a good day if I can just
hear:
*come to me by Pdiddy and nicole. haha

If I reached the top of Mount Everest,
what I would scream:
*dancing where the stars go blue by tyler hilton and bethany joy lenz. hehe

My message to the world has always
been:
* fergalicious by fergie. HAHAHA.

If I got lost on a desert island, I
would yell:
* Rape me by nirvana. HAHA

funny eh? especially the last one. hehe.

2007-01-06T19:13:00.000+08:00

[The Book of You]-to jul,incase you miss anything.

[Chapter One : Basics]
001. Name:azy.
002. Nicknames:zy?.
003. Middle Name:nafahat(hehe).
004. Initials:JA
005. Birthday:29 April 1991.
006. Birthplace:RIPAS hospital.
007. Amount you weighed at birth:.
008. Weight now:47kg
009. Height:5 feet 1
010. Hair color:black.
011. Is that natural or dyed?:natural :D

012. Eye color:dark brown.
013. Do you wear colored contacts?:yeah.
014. Do you have braces?:nada.
015. Do you have any piercings?i think so..
016. What about tattoos?: :p
017. How long is your hair?:boobs length.

[Chapter Two : Friends]
018. Who`s your best friend?:pjul
019. Name some other close friends:Nadj,Nad,Syu (my everything. haha. :P)
020. Name some of you & your best friend`s inside jokes:SEKRUP,SEKENTAK,SEKENDAS. HAHA. its our inside joke.
021. Who`s your oldest friend?:wait. tatak. :)
022. Do you have any friends in other grades?:yes
023. Name some similarities between you and your best friend:we're both in love. :P
024. How did you meet your best friend?: :s
025. How well do your friends know you?:more than anyone know.
026. Which friends do you hangout with the most?:HAADI,FATHUL,FIKRI. tatak,dnell(well,now.)
027. Which friends don`t you hangout with alot?:uhm,well mostly i cant or i dont have the time to.
028. Which friend is in most of your classes?:hahaha. syuhaidah
029. What friends do you sit with at lunch?:benny
030. Are you in any type of clique?:yeah~ the sane. haha COOL kali ahh

[Chapter Three : Family]
031. Who do you live with?:my mommy.
032. Got any siblings? What are their names?:fairuz and zaimah.
033. Are you oldest, youngest, or in the middle?:in the middle. heh
034. Do you often fight with your siblings?:yes,with zaimah
035. Do you get along with your parents?:no.
036. Do you spend more time with family or friends?:friends
037. Who`s your favorite relative?:KAKA REHAN.
038. Who`s your least favorite relative?: :p
039. Which family member are you closest too?: karehan's family.
040. Which relative do you hardly ever see?:all,because we dont gather much.

[Chapter Four : Beliefs]
041. What`s your religion?:muslim.
042. Do you practice your religion?:yep.
043. Do you believe in ghosts and the paranormal?:ghosts,pontianak?.
044. Do you believe in heaven and hell?:yes.
045. Do you believe in God and/or Satan?:god AND satan. well,satans mentioned in the holy ALQURAN.
046. Do you believe in Ouija boards?:FUCK NO!
047. Do you approve of witchcraft/magick?:no,i heard thatll insult ALLAH,but i havta admit,practical magics cool.
048. Do you often attend church?:HAHA. no~
049. Do you believe in angels and/or demons?:yep.
050. Do you believe spells/magick actually work?:inda
051. Do you believe in love at first sight?:hell no,guys use that trick to get us to bed.
052. Has anyone tried to force their beliefs on you?:inda,cubatah.

[Chapter Six : From First to Last]
053. First kiss:21st January of BLABLA year.
054. First friend:entah.
055. First vacation:entah HAHA.
056. First memory:memory of? hehe
057. First class trip:i forgot
058. First enemy:HAHA ntah
059. First crush:antah eh. :p
060. First screenname:?
061. First email:frenzy.....
062. First failing grade on report card:first dont remember.
063. First time you learned to read:inda tau
064. First book you ever read:forgot.
065. Last person you hugged:jul,just erm 2 hours ago. :P
066. Last book you read:ROMEO AND JULIET.
067. Last class you had at school:last last lassstttt month.
068. Last laugh: just now when jul make this face. haha
069. Last time you were angry:yesterday and about to.
070. Last time you were sick:last last month,when i had the ugly cough
071. Last time you took a quiz/test:is this a quiz? if its is then now.
072. Last meal you ate:AYAM GORENG from ayamku with jul
073. Last gift recieved:just now. *BIG WINKS*
074. Last kiss:just now.
075. Last time you saw your best friend:just now. hehe

[Chapter Seven : Have You Ever... ]
076. Set something onfire:the ciggarette.HAHA.
077. Done something illegal:yes,nuff said.
078. Burned a CD:yes
079. Been to a concert:yes
080. Bought clothing for over $200:yes
081. Dyed your hair an unnatural color:no
082. Stayed out past midnight:yes hehe,eveeryyynight.
083. Been to a sports game:yeah
084. Traveled out of your country:yeah
085. Skipped school:yeahhhh
086. Skipped a class:yes yes,remember nad? HAHA (:
087. Got introuble for something you didn`t do:yes
088. Had a root canal and/or a tooth pulled:yes
089. Gotten a cavity:i think so
090. Gotten surgery of any kind:no
091. Been rushed to a hospital:haha no
092. Been so sick you missed a week or more of school:yes
093. Fell up the stairs:no,i dont want to either

[ Chapter Eight : Hopes & Dreams ]
094. What`s your dream job?:to be fashion designer. hehehh,its a dream right.
095. Do you have a job now, what is it?:jadi wife si husband
096. What`s your goal right now?:FUCK LOADS.
097. What`s your greatest accomplishment?:acing my art. hahah
098. If you were president, what would you do?:WORLD PEACE,seriously.
099. If you won the lottery, what would you do?:spend it on lingerie. haha
100. What`s the weirdest dream you`ve ever had?:nadj scooped juls eyes out.
101. Did any of your dreams ever come true?:some.
102. What did you want to be when you grew up when you were little?:a singer just like M2M.
103. Where did you always want to live?:near the beach.
104. Describe your dream house:ohhhoho.next time.
[ Chapter Nine : Way Back When ]
105. When you were little, what was your favorite show?:the power rangers and and richie rich
106. Favorite colors?:pink
107. Favorite place to shop?:A2Z.
108. Did you have a blanket/stuffed animal you took everywhere?:nda
109. Did you wear alot of plastic jewelry?:nope. :S
110. Did you cry on the first day of school?:i dont noe
111. What did you do for fun when you were little?:jerudong park back then when it was new and free
112. Did you get up early just to watch Saturday morning cartoons?:no...
113. Were you always outside?:yeah,playing football with me daddy
114. Who were your best friends?:nadhirah i guess
115. Who were your enemies?:hmmmm.
116. What colors were your room?:white
117. Did you change alot since you were little?:YES.

[Chapter Ten : A Closer Look ]
118. What emotion are you feeling right now?:mixed,happy and scared ant the same time.
119. What are your weaknesses?:fighting with jul
120. What are your strengths?:not fighting with jul. hehehe
121. Describe your personality in five words:hard headed,bad tempered,naughty,i like to smile :).
122. Are there any songs that make you cry?:lagu rindu by keris patih and fallen through by skye sweetnam
123. When was the last time you cried?:yesterday. OH,dont remind me.
124. When was the last time you were extremely happy?:oh when my friends set up my surprise birthday party.
125. Are you depressed and/or suicidal?:sometimes when im stupid.
126. What`s your outlook on life?:hmm.
127. Are you happy with your life?:no,but we just gotta accept how our flow goes.
128. What`s your motto?:to be respected u gotta respect others first.

[Chapter eleven : This is the End ]
129. Random stuff now, what`s the weather like?:cool,its dark outside.
130. What are you wearing?:fathul's shorts and haadi's chelsea big short,dont ask.
131. What bus are you on?:not on a bus
132. Do you enjoy running?:unfortunately,no.
133. Can you write with both hands?:no
134. What grade are you in?:10? wait. 11
135. What`s the most common question people ask you?:where were you tadi?
136. What`s your favorite article of clothing you own?:ntah. hehe

LA FIN!

azy the babysitter

2007-01-05T00:35:00.000+08:00

tonight,well actually now,hakeem and the sister are sleeping over at our place. it was a blast being a babysitter. ma gave me some of her make up pasal lawa,so yeah. hehe. look what i ended up doing. sorry sayang,U ASKED FOR IT.

more pictures at my multiply. just click the link on the left hand side. :)

new year.

2007-01-03T16:07:00.000+08:00

hows your 2007 starting?

alone at home because abangs off for work,mama with her thang and m with ugama. so here i am,boring myself with abang's computer. by the way, SANE(excluding me) how did each one of you celebrated new year? oh p.s i know what benny did for new years. hehe. well,countdown was stupid, 90.7 countdowned in a retarded way. so yeah we(me,m,haadi,fathul,fikri) hopped around like mr.bean in the christmas episode. :D and we did our "cheers" to coke and and unfortunately haadi havta go home early and at 3,i went off hanging out with the sexies. :)

a million times.

2006-12-19T17:29:00.000+08:00

for you. HAHA. hey syu.

syu,im so fucking sorry. :( that day was a total mess. im so sorry i didnt call.

randome shitse.

2006-12-15T18:29:00.000+08:00

awi,i miss u.
azy and syu.
now its syu and azy

azy's cup. FXCK OFF.

ningkapoop. :)

2006-12-10T00:03:00.000+08:00

zy with candy cane and jul with candy floss. :)
syuuu~ :D
zaimah and azyan.

the sayangs. KANDII`
husbandku sama hakim. awww?
hakim. <3u rascals,u rocked arcade.

_x.this afternoon,i cried pasal cupcake inda mau ke empire with me. im bida to him somehow. well,after one hour of crying,in the end i decided NOT to go jua. how stupid.but kami main WRESTLING on m's bed, and i lost thrice. :( BUT,i managed to punch him in the face and sed "WHO'S UR MAMA?,WHO'S UR MAMA?". hahha. okay,thats not funny bekos after that he grabbed me by the tummy and lift me AND threw me on the bed back AND jumped on me. :'( CUPCAKE,thats hurtss. tapi siuk. i cant stop laughing. like. HA HA HA. bitch- haha

_x.the sayang; haadi,amin,afiq,malik,fathul&fikri slept over at my house last night AND in my room. not with me innit ofcourse but i did leave two guys speechless. :) cupcake,ofcourse held on to me.. now biliku macam bilik princess. thank you guys,please do it again. kami iski. :) hung out with syu jua in the afternoon,haha. ur funny syu and with my bro sent her to mall balik. i miss u GUUURRRLLL~. new word added :bugis. (bida sayang(s),ubahhh.)

_x. yesterday night went out to watch dejavu with hakim <3,effi,shiqeen <3,mami and errm dad?, jul followed jua kos i aksed him to pasal ya bida jalan jalan nada dibuat digadong. :D cupcake enjoyed it ALOT. HAHA. hes cupcake bekos hes sweet and this nickname annoys him. cousinku + their parents saw me kissie kissie sama jul arah mall. haha. i hope they dont take it bida-ly. aku suka this week and the week before and the week before. :) thank you.

lifes good.

2006-11-30T18:10:00.000+08:00

yes,lifes good as what nadj mentioned and i agreed on. and thats because i've been regularly out with jul. mmm-hmm. he suffocates me with his love evrywhere i go and i have no reason to not trust him. i know him well(p/s: to you bitches try to pucker up and coming all over him,it just aint workin) and sometimes with me depending on him i have no where else to go to,i've been literally disconnected from my friends and i am a mess,people who knows me well know i cant depend on myself,hell no i cant. and that has got to change. and jul,u help me see what happy means. not just "ha-has",but the simple simple things in life thats infront of our eyes that we miss,and just try to take one second of ur life to appreciate these moments. and i have to thank my brother help me be happy ,sisters been changing to what im afarid to say,lets just hope u dont get hurt,coz i definitely can see it coming sayang. trying to advice you to stay away from it is just useless,so u have to live life and make your own mistakes,and when gloom comes,ur pain-in-the-ass-kaka will always be there for you.see i would love to brag and tell the whole world where i went and when,but i just wont. :) i dont wear a ring because i care what people think and dont want to affect mine nor his family on this,dont get me wrong please. please dont hesitate to say hi when u see me. &even better,hugs. i love you. :)

go on be a bitch.

2006-11-30T17:39:00.000+08:00

brunei is not big of a country. and by god's will i found you,the consequences are ugly. i cant imagine a person who would do what u did. and doing it twice is just so stupid. but i just want to know one thing.. why me?

u hate bakstabbers but backstab,how original.

just to update. :)

2006-11-27T16:17:00.000+08:00

its funny how we can forget the real us. i wake up and sleep brushing me teeth,do you?

TO YOU,BUTCH

2006-11-07T12:32:00.000+08:00

 From the first time that i saw you

I thought you crawled out of Us magazine
Its no wonder that it wasn't all you
All the things that i wanna be

Everybody loved you and they treated you
Like you stepped out of a TV show
 But if they really got the chance to meet you
They'd finally see how hard you blow

I hate you, i hate you
Cause i see through
To what a fake you are
You disgust me, thats why you must be hated

Like the winner of beauty pageant
You are the one i most admire
But as a loser i can only imagine
Wearing that crown but your heads on fire

Your the real american idol
Your the poor mans mandy moore
Your the e true hollywood story
About a two face strip mall whore

I hate you, i hate you
Cause i see through
To what a fake you are
You disgust me, thats why you must be hated

You got a lot of stuff
Stuff you don't deserve
You got a lot of friends
You got a lot of nerve
Trust me, you must be hated

La la la
La la la
La la-la la
La la la
Trust me, you must be hated

I wish i had your money
I wish i had your ride
I wish i had your boyfriend
I wish you'd choke and die

I hate you, i hate you
Cause i see through
To what a bitch you are
You disgust me, thats why you must be hated

I hate you, i hate you (la la la)
Cause i see through (la la la)
To what a bitch you are (la la la)
You disgust me, thats why you must be hated

ONE OF EVERYTHING.

2006-11-05T18:48:00.000+08:00

mostly what happent from the first day of raya till erm.. im not sure,ive been a mess since then. totally unorganized. really what keeps me together is jul and my sister and SOME of my friends. i planned to take picture to EVERY house we went but but :( didnt manage to its either i forgot or malu to take pics.but herree are some i picked out,BANYAK LAGI,but aku inda post pasal aku bida. enjoy.

HALO.

2006-10-21T17:36:00.001+08:00

i never promised a ray of light,i never promised there'd be sunshine everyday.

i wear a halo when you look at me. i just wanna love you,i just wanna love you.

i cant love you no more. i give up. im sorry. please dont promise forever no more. in marriage theres no such thing as ego. i said sorry,not caring whos fault it was. i just wanna love you,why dont yu just let me love you? i can and will whole-heartedly. u know that.. u know id cry with you and laugh with you,ive done that,always.. isnt it enough? im 15 and a pain in the ass,i know that.. but.. i stuck with your bad habbits and cope with everything.. i just want u to do the same. maybe im not lucky,the one i loved didnt love me back. and for me.. thats a tragedy.

it all falls down

2006-10-20T16:39:00.000+08:00

i miss school,no school means no friends,well.. not no friends but less time to laugh and spend time with my friends since i cant go out that much. i want my friends now.. SANE,yes i need you. remember the times when i fight with jul and in the morning i know its gonna be okay because ive got yu guys. i dont have to worry about any of the shits. but now,whose shoulder am i going to cry on? i miss you guys.

well,being married is nice,but married life.. its no fun at all. is all HARD WORK,work hard to be together,work hard of all responsibilities. i dont like the person i've become and i dont like the person tat juls become. i thought that im whole but its really tering me apart. im just a teenager and im not even sure what my hobby,whats my favourite colour,what type of music i like. its not easy,and i agree lifes a bitch.. but whos fault is that? my own. fizah had made me happy this few days, she made me believe that i can be trusted and theres still someone out there who loves me&care for me. i love u fizah,thank you. i cant wait the party this saturday. :) we'll rock their ass out,yes? hehe.

p.s: i dont want to miss you,not now. because if i do.. it'll just make me weak,and i dont want to be that person anymore. i gootta try to stand on a firm ground.

yep.

2006-10-17T19:05:00.000+08:00

i envy u nathan scott(james lafferty) and haley james scott(bethany joy galleoti). u made it through.last week i was afraid that erm to tell people about this,to be afraid to talk about it is to be ashame of it,but im not ashamed of my marriage.yes i am married,legally. a marrigae like no other. and i love jul with all my heart. be moving out once he got a job,and for once i can set my own rules. but for now im following my mum's rules and im not complaining,yes for once. our marriage inspiration is one tree hil's cast those two couples above. actually my life now is inspired by them and they're a good example of my life now bsically. anyways,ive said what i need to say and hope that people wont question my marriage. okay u know,thats enough,talk about it? nah.. i wont entertain you. much love.
im gonna be peyton someday. :)
episode 16,season 3,seriously.. this is a must see!! u'll cry!
my inspiration.
i want... (a)
brooke designed this dress and i want to buy it. $137 baby.

lucas scott and peyton sawyer.
lucas scott and raechel slut.
aww.. brotherly love.

brooke davis,honesty and looks.

p.s:/ EXAMS A BITCH. i failed my history..well,i saw that coming. :(

because its the start

2006-09-26T20:17:00.000+08:00

moderate rock.

2006-09-23T20:29:00.000+08:00

MONKEY.

ben's art.

i said i would post up pictures but i never do. im sorry. its hard for me to use the pc sometimes. so. soon yes? i fall in love again,but thats not hard to believe,for someone like me. some said i couldnt make up my mind and some just feel sorry for me. but whatever happent to good friends that I can rely on? im not trying to hurt here. but thiss my blog,and my freedom of speech. i would be thankful if you would respect that.

ive been pissing off people much lately,its either i cant help it,or im just a pain. but mostly im a pain. jul proved that to me.&i agree, hearing what he have to say, i am the one with the problem and every fight is my fault. i would never blame him for any fights i have,some people would know better. id never call him stupit or bitch like he did. but id say i wont blame him. but if i were to say something,ud break down and fall. but i wont let that happen to you,i couldnt and wouldnt. anyways,there is no reason for me to hurt someone.

seriously b, i dont know what to say to you. if you dont care anymore. then. consider me as your friend who needs YOUR KIND of attention.

good night. :) may the shadows lungs in to your soul.

2006-09-18T14:32:00.000+08:00

haha. now theres alot more than yu think. haha. that is just 2/100 of it. haha. i wanna mandi now,may post up some random pictures later. :)

lets go carwashing eh?

everything.

2006-09-15T16:51:00.000+08:00

stare m,stare.
freeshow. HAHA.
see the merlion w the water water?
HARED ROCK CAFE,baby.
anywhere is a good place to pose.waiting for food,and b's meassage. see how bored i am? :P
MRT,and m Behind me.
HERMES,its pronounced as,ermey.
for nadj.
what a cutie i had a breakfast with.
for nadj,again.
for.. errm. HAZIQ? BURGER KING.
sentosa's coffee zone,its weird because usually cats will be walking around,but here.. PEACOCKS.
in a bus to............ to......... to.... the dolphins? ntah eh.
for papi.
shake it,SHAKE IT. haha. WIGGLES.
for nadj,AGAIN.
its fun,but i couldnt get wet,mama inda suruh.
AINT I COOL?
haha. saturday scene,HARD ROCK CAFE.
for ben-benn-benny.
thats true. HAHA.
im lost,help. please,im serious,see my face?
WOAH aint it?
bugis.
clarke quay with mama,ya staiee kan to be in the picture. HAHA.
im so scraed. :P
this place is haunted,a job for the FLOWER SISTERS.
dummies.
old-fashined TV. coo-cooolll
for benny.
lift,hotel.

to jul.

2006-09-04T01:37:00.000+08:00

hi jul. this is for you,as i promised. i love you,if not i'll not keep crawling back to you. but things dont seem to be the same,u keep ignoring me,and i do that to you too. before,id be obsessed about you,not seeing you for one day would made me cry. but now,i dont feel that. and before,when i hug u,i feel so safe,so loved.. its starting to change now. and its not funny nor its acceptable for me. if yu want to love me,love me for life.. and i can assure you that id love you more than anything. dont love me just for one day and the next go all grumpy with me. its not funny. its not easy to let yu go and its not easy to stop loving you. you may forget what we've built in a second,but thats not me. i keep all the memories with you safely,only god knows. and when im flying,i intend to think about stuff deeply,when u sang to me and i stared at you, it all came down to me of how important you are to me,how much i love this person sitting and singing his heart to me,no one can see that,faza didnt know why the hell i started crying looking at you. i miss the feeling to miss you every single second.i love you but u've changed,fullstop. and i hate the new you. you remember when YOURE the one who watch me sleep?u'll hug me first when my face turns to a frown? and ud call me randomly just to hear how im doing? now tell me if thats not sweet. and now that person vanishes. it all came down to a crash.and it really really upsets me yu deleted my video and put in three other video of girls u get high with. that really hurts. how i wish this would end,this feeling. how i wish it was like before. it feels soo goood to be in love,to love and to be loved.

i love you. typing this made me cry because i realise how much i love you,and it hurts how you never noe how i realy feel. but if ure the one who makes me happy,it cant be that bad.

pictures.

2006-09-02T13:19:00.000+08:00

29thofaugust. ;HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY TO OUR DEAREST COKOLATTS.

just alot of pictures. :)

02NDOFSEPTEMBER.

yesterday i slept at my grandma's house. it was fun. i watched the stars with jul,reminiscing. woke up aound 1:45 and had to get ready tarus cause karehan brought us,pojee,shiqeen and i out. went to see sayang at mall,was only there for 1 and a half hours.. so,yeah. we ate chocolate sundae together. i love him. yes,im together with him again. hes the person who i'll accpet bad or good. and he'll accept me too. this songs perfect for me,if it makes you happy.
,click. right right? i love cruising around with kakarehan too. it made me jealous tho,how sweet and romantic they were.(karehan and pojee) too bad i didnt have my camera with me,if not,the day wud be purrrrrfect. my mum didnt even went searching for me. went home at about 10. AAA! :D i went home just so i can see jul again,but no. what a waste.shudve stayed over at buyan's.

went to send abg to s'pore today for debate. woke up at 7. m criedd. hahhaa. i didnt,i just whispered t'care to him. whats there to cry? be meeting him again on wednesday in singapore!! YES BABYY IM GOING TO SINGAPORE. hehe.

jul-look-alike.

for emah and umi. :)

2006-08-28T17:54:00.000+08:00

im soo good. hahahah

2006-08-23T17:48:00.000+08:00

MORE PICTURES. :)

brand new.

2006-08-23T12:42:00.000+08:00

BRAND NEW.

i started studying today. and it felt GREAT. i dont feel so tupit anymore,because i use to copy all my homeworks from nadj,and now,i look it through,its actually pretty simple. :) (i can hear*woot~ woot~*) anyways,i changed and updated my blog,i edited all my posts. u can take a quick look,if you want,that is. :)

something has changed.

2006-08-22T13:44:00.000+08:00

ive been eating alootttah lately. if i dont eat,i'll get mean. and im not joking.☺ and if im full i tend to sleep,one of my bad habbits. another one isss... breaking nad's ruler into two when shes not looking. my current addiction is MAGGI CURRY BABY. hehe. yesterday i ate at nad's so... nyaman. i dunno how to cook like that. wel,if i cook,i follow the instructions. :) schools a mess. i havent study yet. i studied history. im sick of failing every term. i hate history. well, thats life,sometimes u just have to do something thats killing you or yu have to do something bad to do something good. :D

chazzer means pigs who cant fly straight,pjul. hahah. I NOEE. :) ♥

PICTURESSS.

2006-08-19T20:25:00.000+08:00

PICTURESSS.☺

recovered.

2006-08-18T13:19:00.000+08:00

i recovered,haha. and benny.. i found my soul,whatever. btw,i'll post pictures soon. i promise. so... everyone has just gotta hold on. and theres this craysie picture of me,syu and nadj..☺nadj and shoe,click. aint it RETARDO?:D

p/s:papi..dont go.

me.

2006-08-07T13:42:00.000+08:00

i may not write for awhile. i need to find myself and search for my soul again.

p/s:i love yu and im sorry.u noe i want yu for life.

I PIERCED MY EARS FOR THE FIRST TIME!

:)

2006-08-05T14:02:00.000+08:00

i love you b. :)

back

2006-08-04T13:31:00.000+08:00

guess whatttt?! im watching the fireworks tomorrow. with nad,benny and papi.. hhehe. i finally gotta meet the mystery guy. hehe. anyways i cant wait to jump up and down for the fireworks. ive been sooo rajin blogging,havent i? *pats on the head. hehe. okay now im malas.

good day little mosquitoes.

bah bah black shheep. YAWN

2006-08-03T14:57:00.001+08:00

i have been a lazy lazy bum lately, my rooms a mess. bnyak tissues after all the cryings,but i dnt give a *beep. ahaha and [n39. pernah]is.. gone,not chatting with me anymore.so im with iza and benny. iza is sending me clips. KIYUTT MATAII ya ahh. she sang me fall to piece nadj! haha. and and benny is making me go.. ahaha-*quiet.. HAHA-*quiet. ktawa kesian lahh? and im saving all iza's voice to a folder. haha. ada yg"BURUK~~" and.."nda mauu~i dont like this song" hahaa. bah. gonna continue chatting now.

cheers DaWgGsS! ahaha

u kill,i watch.u die,i'll kill.

2006-08-02T17:24:00.000+08:00

current addiction: TONY MONTANA &&benny.

dont toot your horn,ure not even that good. TONY MONTANA,a.k.a Al Pacino<3

i once wrote i wanna meet insane clown posse,right? rah my friendster profile,now ive seen their video,i was like. OMG! theyre so scary! i mean.. seriously~ have u seen them? check them out..rah youtube kahh. theyre so scray. i like their music saja plus my bro is like a maniac now following their style.. which is kinda.. errr. WIERDLY EYW.

if i give a shit,u'll be the first i give to. :)

fuck.(astaghfirullahalazim) nadj,we rule!

2006-08-02T13:33:00.000+08:00

every strict mom leads their children to weed.

i'lll.... i'll....

2006-08-01T14:32:00.000+08:00

i'll be strong syg... i love you.

;&& wheres me benny?

babe and the sayang.

2006-07-30T13:13:00.000+08:00

30th of july.
_x.current addiction: fireworks && benny.

i watched the tatu thing last nigt(tatu/tatoo however u wish to spell it.) well,the sad part is,M is having the time of her life sal ya duduk next to her best friend.and im stuck sitting next to her parents. i love the fireworks. it makes me go OHMYGODDD!!! WOOOW! i swear i was the only one excited. coz im the only one screaming like"WOW! AGAIN! OMYGOD!! WOOW!!!" haha. M was like.. shut up! u noe ppl can hear you. ahha! my mum sat somewhere at the pengarah section so we're not with her(thank god!) i enjoyed indonesia's performance tho rather than any and the one they played"sway" song. the school people were hyper.siuk wah their section. i wish i joined my school. boreng ah where u enjoy fireworks by urself. atleast if u are with ure friends u'll be screaming and enjoying berabis.

p.s: emah,umi.. sorry i cant make it.

:dont care what people say,i enjoy having you around.

28th of JUL.
addiction of the day:_x.class of 87
saja~ i love the arts done by pierre cardin.

the beach,my soul, our love.

2006-07-10T13:23:00.000+08:00

hihi. i went to the beach yesterday. n it wasss sooo fun. it was spose to be all form 4s but,most of them didnt show up. mr.richard was there tho barbequieng our ANGUS chickens. haha. tapi nyaman berabiss. ohoh,we rode on this "motorcycle for the beach thingie." siokkk!!! my first ride was wif arvin. then i drive manda,then jul n i drove each other taking turns. it was my first time,yatah bari watirr berabiss urg yg i brought.manda was like"ZYYY OHMYGODD!! JGN CEMATUU! I DONT WANNA DIEE!!!" n jul was like"BY! ADA LUPAK! BISAI! BOH! TERABANG TANI NIE! PLAHAN2 WAH.. BABBYYYY!!!!" (it was funny. me driving was laughing alone.) hahah. siok! if my friends were complete:nad,nadj,elle,anna and amal was there... THE BOMB TUHH!! gilerrr kalii. heheh. i spent most of my time w manda tho, welll~ jul plang banyak,but. hahah. since csyu was in the OCEAN. hahaha! siok lahh.

oh~ i wish i can post up all my pictures.. but.. i think this is enough.

credits to:kelvin,hong jim and nabil for organizing it.. and others who helped out. i had fun!

jul<3

midnight rolling.

2006-07-06T14:49:00.000+08:00

.xx: my current addiction: fairuz,dex,abu,nawy,ijal,dnell,qayum,faza, mall && the beach.

[tazmania,short pants and sketchers sneakers.]

i love this week. starting from saturday night at mall. socialized. i saw eveeeryything. my current loving is to kakafai. she had made my life so wonderpuulll. and yunus jua juaa. and one night i heard on the radio how a 15 year old girl kana raped and like if she dies ya kan bunuh and haunt the guyS. like ohmygadds jua tu. cmon guys, have u got no better things to do beside thinking about sex? cmon dont be sooo desperate lah kan merugul urg. ure ruining a life. like. HOW SAD IS THAT? loseerr jua banarr tu. u'll get ur turn if u have the decency to respect a girl. yes,im a bit mental,because.. imagine if this happens to you,a relative? howd yu feel?

anyways~ ive finally seen abu,batah dah nda jumpa.. like,like... AGES.nawy jua dongss,i miss the nights. shosshhh shhoosssh. the nights been fun everyone treated me uh-mazingly, especially cjoules. hehe.(BOYPRIEND C AZY. ) haha.

banyak mann homeworks(i can see nadj and syu nodding. haha!) PHYSICS,BIO,ENGLISH,MATHS. antammm antam. i got a date and a dress for ELLE'S PARTY. yiiihawww!

plans: friday, with nadj, syu,nad,elle, anna and amal to EMPIRE.
saturday,dentist appointment.
sunday,SAS BEACH PARTY. and~ soo onn. hahah.

im a victim too.

2006-06-28T21:57:00.000+08:00

misery,worthless,broken.

i just wish i can copy and paste what syu sed about family. its so true. some just act fake after telling you how u feel,some with just their egos.im not scared,im TERRIFIED. i can jump ovr a building than talking to fai. it reli scares me, i dont noe why, but knowing i can be stronger in words than him. but, this is not necessary is it? to hurt a person on the net? to offend a person? for me, saying sorry is the hardest thing to do in my family, really. my mum, brother and even my sister. just my father and me can say such stupid words but the results is us getting along again. thats what i want. my family to treat me,how my friends treat me, i feel deserved.

:anyways~ i got along with jul.. as usual i noe some of you may be grunting and rolling your eyes. i just cant help it. can i? today we had a special talk about sex in school.

:elle did our face paintings. i <3

joules,i love you

the old days. i love you joules. ure mine.

2006-06-22T22:39:00.000+08:00

ahhh.. bah.. kheeyut tah tu.:D
scoo and pjul. :D
saadah,baby nadj ;p,sayang and me.
MY sayang.
sayangku and sayangmu. :P

these are just a few picture i post up.. today. more soon. sal joules want his picture up so bad. HAHA. i love you.

i pick the wrong time to kick my mood

2006-06-20T20:53:00.000+08:00

i went to the dentist today.. omg! fuck themm.. all the kids that goes through it cries. sanak eh. like that makes me even more takut.~~i cried~~. :( it was just a filling but what i think inside my head was "fuck this s gonna hurt! this gonna hurt,i can do it.. wait.. n i cant... i can.. cant!"

some people are wondering am i still with jul? i myself dont noe.. because we agreed on ~~breaking up~~ but i made promises n he sed okay i can deal with that now im good. so.. i dont noe where that leads us. he did mention that he still can help me even if im not his gf. omg! that hurts. that really hurts. one thing its not the same anymore.. i mean.. if hes my boyfriend.. hes MINE! but... when hes a friend,he can fuck with all the girls he wants. he said he wants to leave me because that he "cannot tahan" me anymore.. c'mon. was i that mean? :( *sniffles. and.. what about the memories? what about the things we've been through? doesntthat mattter? can he live withput me? seriously,can he? but mostly what i fear is he leaving me for another girl,just because shes BETTER OFF. omygod.. i cant deal with that. i'll put a bullet in my head, n im not joking on this. like it means im a bad person or something. i cant love someone enough. yes,maybe this is when our realatiship has its downs but,why cant it be just perfect? because together i feel right. why must it be wrong?

but.. im tired now,im tired being the best of him. because if he cant see it naturally, i dont noe what im suppose to do,bcause i tried everything to get him to love me:beauty,attitude,ditching my friends to be with him. i mean... what ive done? isnt it enough? im tired.. i wanna be the best but it seems like... i cant anymore. im not strong.. i was never strong... so please just love me... because i love you.. oh~ only god noes how much.

i love you,i cant stop thinking about you... are you feeling the same way?

photos of u and me and thee world.

2006-06-18T18:27:00.000+08:00

after a day out with my hantu. HAHA. :)

i told you im gonna put your picture up.HHAAHA! u kalings.

kicks kicks and throw backs.

2006-06-18T17:12:00.000+08:00

from gorgeouslyloved.blogspot.com to sweetestkicks. HAHA. just having fun with life,i'll not let anyone or ANYTHING let me down anymore. i'll try not to slit my wrist and make you worry. :) SUCK IT UP ZY,JUST FUCK IT! haha.

: yesterday was nad's birthday. SHES FIFTEEEN! omg! haha. it was fun deh! they were; me,joules,nadj,syu,elle,auni,M. well,those were the ones who ate with us masa jolibee masa kan makan. HAHA, apakannn. we called jul's friend c-SHHHEERIINNAA.. whathefuckk herr!?? HAHA. that ugly biotch. she didn pick up. but if she did,she'll regret being friends with jul. hey,imnot mean... jst dont mess my already messed-up love life n i'll leave you the fuck alone.but other then that, i had fun from the start i ran over to nad n hugged her.♥

:today.. nothing happened. just so i miss my flying bangau so much. i hate him for making me miss him. HAHA. wattfakk!? HAHA. otays.

15months and 1 day.....-<3